The three B's is what my Today consisted of. Let me start of saying that I am currently in my bath tub under a mound of bubbles and I feel relaxed. RELAXED PEOPLE, I FEEL RELAXED. Isn't it such a beautiful word....relaxed. So here I contently soak behind locked doors with just me, myself, and the burn book.
I have finally finished my wretched biology test review. Let me tell you it was no fun at all! I woke up at 10am and the after breakfast proceeded to the dreaded bio review and didn't surface until 5pm for supper. Now thats what I call a study session!
Okay so maybe I wasn't studying the whole time. Maybe I was talking to my ex. Just maybe the topic of friends with benefits was brought to light and just maybe we are. Now replace the "maybe" with "okay yes".
I admit that my feelings for my Ex are not completely gone but yet I also can not say that I have a "crush" on him because I don't. I think the reason that there are lingering feeling for him is because him and I never really experienced the "normal" awkwardness and the solitary stage that came after a break up. Ex and I just went back to being friends and like nothing ever happened. Maybe for him it was easy to pretend that nothing ever happened but for me it wasn't so easy, I tried to mask the hurt that I felt after we broke up by going on other dates and going back to bad habits of flirting with anything with a dick. Nothing could honestly replace what I was missing....him. We had a lot in common but yet almost nothing in common at all. Him and I are both adopted (p.s. Im adopted,no joke) and he liked and thrived on sports like it was air,while I on the other hand was comfortable cheering on the sidelines. We had and still have a good connection. It's just not exactly gravity balanced. I don't think that being friends with benefits will change the way we view each other because we've been there done that, if anything I think it will make our friendship just a little bit more trusting.
Rereading through this I realized this sounds more like a self persuasive talk.I don't even know... I guess maybe Im to curious for my own good? Im just kinda excited to see him! I cant deny Ive missed him in "that" sense.
Well, I no longer have a blanket of bubbles so I think my relaxation time is over and its time to go back to my hectic life.
AJ over and out
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